That feeling has returned,

a physically ill sensation, manifesting right at my very centre.

Another day to forget, as a ray of hope

is extinguished. Leaving only despair, uncertainty and loneliness.

How is it that what once came easily has become so elusive?

I fear for myself, but only because there will come a point where

everything becomes beyond my means, or ability.

These tears will flow for the moment,

until such time as the dark reality becomes my reality.

I’ll try not to get my hopes up.

Steve B 01/14